My New Introduction Video (from my Patreon page)

 

Here it is, I finally found some music I liked and decided to finish this video off even though the quality is not as good as I would like. However, it is much better at explaining the site than the old one was.  This shows the art that is at the core of my Patreon page.  The music is a creative commons track from the Free Music Archive under soundtracks Borrtex __-__5 Sky.

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New Introduction (from my Patreon page)

Here is my new introduction on my Patreon page.

 

“Breath.  That is what creating is for me, breath.  It is the only thing that gives meaning to my life and is the impetus behind what you see here.  From an early age I was a creator, whether in clay, Legos, or sticks and stones.

I spent hours building creatures, houses, towns, and worlds.  Then I saw something my mother drew and was hooked.  Drawing allowed my ideas to branch out and take on new shapes, becoming more substantial with each year.  However, the path has not been easy for me to follow, disappearing several times in my life but always coming back.  For decades I followed the artistic path only.  I was focused on drawing and painting with sculpture sparkling through on occasion.

Then after a rough period of family issues, I found I needed another outlet for my ideas and feelings.  At this time I found SFFworld.com where I interacted with kind and open people that were willing to listen to my thoughts.  I lurked for a time, watching the discussions and writing contests until I finally decided to try my hand at story telling. Several years on, I am still at it, nearing the completion of my first collection of short stories.

This is where you come in.  I need help to continue this journey.  As I have said, this has been a hard journey for me with little support and large hurdles.  I had a job that, while unsatisfying, was paying most of the bills.  However, it was taking a toll on me creatively and leaving me more and more in debt.  In an attempt to change this course, I decided to make this Patreon page to share my art and stories with people willing to support their creation by becoming patrons.

For a small monthly fee you will gain access to downloadable versions of my stories and artwork.  I also hope to eventually create physical copies that will be available for sale.  Your patronage will help me to continue creating the unique artwork displayed on this page, as well as, the fantastical stories that bubble out of my mind.  Please consider joining me on this wild and crazy ride that propels me ever forward toward the stars and beyond.” 

Termanicz Update (from my Patreon Page)

 

Here is the new background I have been drawing for the Termanicz project.  As you can see, I turned on all the line work to show what needs done and how it fits together.  I have lots of ideas for the lighting and colors, which will be a little like the other city look but with tweaks.  I have to work on painting this current city layer first because I have a smaller section that I plan to scale down to place further behind to give the illusion of depth.  I am looking forward to playing with this.

Art Updates (from my Patreon page)

So, I have all this extra time on my hands now.  I haven’t gotten too crazy looking for a job yet because I am cleaning up a lot of stuff that was getting pushed aside by all the stress from my former job.  Hell, I am spending all my time at the dentist.  I have been there for four visits and now have to go for a fifth because another front tooth chipped.  Damn!  However, the first application fell through but I am not overly surprised because I was not centered in the geographic area of the route.  Big thing with these kind of companies these days.  At least my resume is on file for when and if the expansions occur in the five companies that will be allowed to work in the chain my old company was in.  In addition, I may check out another company that works in this chain that is commission based.  I have my reservations, but I am not totally sure I want to go back to what I did.  I may even try for a pure merchandising job with someone like Pepsi or Coke.

Anyway, with all this extra time, I have decided to push on some of the backlog of projects and explore some new ideas.  First off, I am almost finished with the “Quiet Strength – Silent Vulnerability” coloring page reward and hope to have it posted early tomorrow.  This took longer than I wanted because the image was made years ago with no thought at all of using it as anything other than a reference.  Cleaning up the sections that where shaded was difficult because of what the scanner chose to consider dark and light.  All in all though, I think I got it licked, just some final lines to clean up.  Second, I have been itching to get back at the Termanicz image and thinking about drawing a background the will be more concrete than trying to do it from scratch on the computer.  I am not quite comfortable with that yet.  Finally, I have been looking into how to do a print project on my Patreon page.  It looks like I will be making a separate page just for that and will be working out the details of what to include in the reward, how many I will print, and how much it will cost.  I hope to have the first one ready soon so watch for updates.

P.S. I wanted to know if anyone thinks my flash fiction entry “A Word in the Hand is Worth Two in the Bush” should be added to the stories I already have slated for “Mystics and Misfits”?

New Reward (from my Patreon page)

Sorry, this one is late because of the turmoil in my life.  Here is the write up at my Patreon page:

“This week’s reward begins the second Dragon Dream short story, which is set in a much richer world where oceans are made of sand and prophecies set Jason Connors path.  The subtitle for these chapters is “Currents of the World” and will have a strong bearing upon the story.  I hope you will be there for the next confrontation Jason has with the mysterious Dragon.”

Update on Me

Okay, so tomorrow will be the first day in years that I have no need to be anywhere that has nothing to do with vacations, holidays, or health reasons.  It has been somewhat of a challenging weekend working through the stress, anger, and bitterness of what my company has put me through the past several years, which has taken quite the toll on my physical and mental well being.  The sad part is that I believe for a vast majority of the America middle class, what I endured is not the exception but the norm.  I may post my thoughts about this soon once I have processed it all.

I will say that I have tried to keep myself busy physically to help run some of the steam out of me.  By Saturday, I began to realize, that although this was a shitty thing to have done to me, it may have been for the best.  I understood this as my heart was thumping wildly and my head was spinning.  A few extra trips to the bathroom also highlighted the point.  I was a tangled mess from trying to make unrealistic goals into reality, while the compensation for this tightrope juggling act was actually shrinking every time I looked.

While I had just been given a raise last year, the first in ten years and small at that, my medical package had increased sharply and I had just lost a significant part of my auto allowance.  I have been eating peanut butter sandwiches for lunch and buttered noodles for most of my meals along with having no entertainment packages other than netflix streaming for the past two years and I even dropped that.  I now only watch youtube videos and the occasional $5 dvd I allow myself to buy.  Eating out was a 4 for $4 Wendy’s meal that I got medium sized for $5, that didn’t happen that much.  I have been giving my company good hard work just so I could be poor.

I don’t totally blame them for that because I stayed out of comfort.  I have no desire to be a manager, which is the only way to make any more money in a company like mine.  As far as I can see, the small amount of money I would have gotten would not have compensated me for the BS I would have had to deal with and shovel.  In addition, I would not have lasted long.  I am not the type to quietly accept stupid ideas or out and out lying.  I tend to tell you how I see things whether you like it or not.  The only reason I lasted as long as I did through the last two years of idiotic changes was that my immediate boss did not pass along my questioning of the effectiveness, accuracy, and practicality of the information given to the sales force.  It needed to be said but the truth is, as in most cases, no one upstairs wanted to hear it.  Think of Wells Fargo. Anyway, I just wanted to do a good job and get a non-poverty wage, but for a lot of the middle class, this is asking too much these days.  Sad!

So, in the end, I was fighting to keep a job that was making me poor; ruining my mental, moral, and physical health; and trying to point out glaring rose colored issues to people wearing thick rose colored glasses had no worth.  I think this needed to happen for me, piss on them.  I gave them good work for most of my 16 years with them.  Not always but more often than not, even when they screwed me over royally.  The funny thing is, I used to wonder how sales reps. in my line of work could sit in their cars and pretend to actually do the job, wonder how they could fudge the work they were doing.  Now I know.  The system breaks them down.  Rocking the boat is rewarded with a quick slap of the paddle.  Bad ideas are bullied through by people that don’t have to do the work and can avoid the consequences.

So, how am I doing?  Scared, but okay so far.  I have some plans running in my head, some you may be able to help with others not.  I am taking some time to pick up the pieces that this ridiculous situation has scattered throughout my life.  I am looking at my options and hoping to find some time to do art because I deserve it.  Hopefully I will have something for you soon.  Peace.

 

 

The Shoe has Dropped

Well folks, I got some bad but not unexpected news today.  As of this morning the job that I have been doing for about 16 years has surprisingly been eliminated.  As many of you know from previous posts, conditions in my place of employment have been steady getting worse and the accompanying pressure to achieve ever increasing goals was leaving me in a bad position.  I endeavored to cover my back as much as I could but this situation was inevitable when management sets their minds on a belief system outside of reality.

I am already looking at options with another company; however, as you know, I am very tired of playing this game and gain no satisfaction for it anymore.  That is why I have been trying so hard through all of this to gain a following for my writing and artwork.  If ever I needed support from you guys, it is now.  Please share this post with all that you know and if you can, please become a Patron of my Patreon page.

All you angels out there, I know it is getting really tough, but if you can squeak out $1 or $3 a month to share in my creative efforts it would be unbelievably appreciated.  I have so much in my head that I want to share that is being sidetracked by just trying to survive.  By this point I have shared a decent amount of my work that you can see the potential for some truly great works.  Please help me give you creations to inspire and comfort you in the struggle we all share.  Thanks for your help.